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As I sit here enjoying the mild spring day I can't help but think about where I've been and where I'm going. Nothing is ever set in stone and I've tried too live my life with no regrets. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you a much stronger person. There might be some people that think I should regret certain aspects of my past but those were just bumps along my road leading me to the person I have become today.
My travels down this road haven't always been the smoothest of rides but I can say that they have always been interesting and a learning experience. I've always been the one to take the unexpected risk, if you told me "no, you can't do it you're just a girl" I was going to do it just to prove you wrong. From being a roadie for a few bands around the states, traveling to Europe on my own, going down to Mexico to learn to wrestle, mixing it up with the guys, coming back from a broken neck to wrestle again, and breaking the mold of what was considered "beautiful" in the WWE.
If I thought the days of people telling me "no" were over when I decided to retire four years ago, I was only deluding myself. They just changed the focus of their "noes", from wrestling to music to a few other things. Music has always been my first love and passion but somewhere along that road it took a bit of a detour but I've been fortunate enough to get that back on track. I don't do it to become rich and famous, that kind of happened to some degree because of wrestling, I do it because it allows me a personal freedom that I've only ever found through music. I've also been fortunate enough to pursue new dreams as they come up.
I've found a nice niche in the business and have gotten to tour all over Europe again, playing what I wanna play and interacting with the fans that really are more like family and friends then anything else. For the time being though the Luchagors are on hiatus so Shane and the rest of the guys can persue some other opportunities and it's also allowed me the chance to branch out and produce a few music videos for some bands I've had the pleasure of playing with over the years.
At the time I decided to walk away from the ring in November of 2006 at Survivor Series I had reached a point in my professional life that I had just had enough. There are only so many times you can be called a "Slut" and a "Whore" by people and a company that are only going by the side of the story told by a bitter, jealous ex. I make no qualms or excuses for my decisions back in 2004, of course it could have been handled completely differently but I followed my heart and things were what they were.
When asked about a comeback I've always said never say never, but in the back of my mind I was telling myself that my time in the wrestling business was probably over for good, and outside of a couple appearances for the WWE in the past four years and a handful of signings and conventions mixed in I've stuck to that. But after being around friends and fans during the Mania festivities two weeks ago in Atlanta that itch that never quite goes away is making its self more known and while nothing is concrete you might want to keep your eyes open cause you never know when and where I might just decide to show up again.
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